Too Close to the Unknown

It's almost October. Which means it's almost William's birthday. Which means its almost Wesley's birthday. Which means it's about a month from our anniversary, Thanksgiving, Alyssa's birthday, Travis's birthday, Larry's birthday, GRADUATION and then Christmas.

This also means that we're getting super SUPER close to the unknown. Will Travis get a job as soon as he graduates? Will it be in Lubbock? If not, then where? If no job right away, then what next? School? Japan? Could we really be going to Japan? (This is a possibility people. I'm actually warming up to the idea, as long as WW3 doesn't happen while we're there. Ask Glenn.)

The point is there are a lot of what ifs and possibilities. I have no doubts about everything working out. What I do fear is the following:

1.) Leaving Lubbock. I know I complain about L a lot. It's far from everything. There's nothing to do here. blah blah blah. What is here? The people. Our ward. Our stake. Our friends. Aubry and the kids. Lubbock is our first home as a married couple (excluding the 3 weeks we lived in my parents' house after marriaging.) We still live in the same dinky apartment we moved into almost 2 years ago. It's home for us, really. We're comfortable here. We've grown to love our little L. It's where Wesley was born. I'm glad we'll always have that. And I'm glad he can claim that.

2.) Moving away from Family and Friends. This is semi-fear. I'm comfortable with the fact that a) family is within ~6hr driving distance, b) Aubry and his kids live just on the other side of campus from us, c) we have really great, close friends that come over every other night. I'm also semi-intrigued with the idea of moving somewhere where we know NO ONE. It would really put me out of my comfort zone and I kinda like that. But again, I'm really comfortable with my comfort zone in L.

3.) I can't really think of anything else I'm fearing. It's really just leaving Lubbock.

People always say "Lubbock is a hole. It gets a hold on people and they never leave." It's always sounded so negative to me when they've said that. The truth is: Lubbock does have a hold on people. It's on their hearts. It's on my heart. Lubbock is kind, loving, real. And I'll miss it whenever we do leave this place.

And now, for your entertainment, Wesley's latest trip to Target....